212. ST.
Catherine of Siena. Part seventeen
We were discussing the vision in which Jesus asked her to
choose between the crown of gold and crown of thorns.
Jesus said “All
things are in my power. In the end you will get complete victory over the
Devil” The vision ended. She told Raymond that her head hurt where it had been
pricked by the thorns of the crown.
The
response of Catherine to evil of Andrea with good eventually had an effect on
Andrea. She felt guilty and remorseful. One day she had the vision with open
eyes in which Catherine face transformed into that of angelic beauty. I have
already described it in blog 207. That vision had a profound effect on Andrea.
She wept bitterly. She asked Catherine for forgiveness. Catherine said, there
is nothing to forgive. Catherine threw herself in the arms of the person who
had damaged her reputation. Andrea told everybody that she had spread lies and
that Catherine was a pure and pious virgin. She told them of the
transfiguration of Catherine and the holy light. There
is a final extraordinary story to report in the interaction between Andrea and
the holy virgin. One day the stench from the wound was so great that it
overwhelmed Catherine. She was nauseated and wanted to vomit. But she still
cleaned the ulcer. Then she collected all that putrid fluid and pus in a cup
and drank it! She also put her mouth to the sore. This was her act of rebellion
against her revulsion to the smell and pus. She wanted to conquer her body. And
she did. She confided to Raymond, “Never in my life have I tasted any food and
drink sweeter or more exquisite.”That night Jesus appeared in her vision. He
praised her lavishly. Part of what He said was, “….not only did you show
indifference to what people said about you, but……you cheerfully drank that
abhorrent drink….I will give you a drink that transcends every human nature and
expectation.” He whispered to her, “Drink daughter from my side…”She put her
lips to the most holy wound and drank abundantly the indescribable and holy
liquid. The effect of that liquid was that her soul and body was permeated with
graces.
From that time onwards she never wanted food or was able to
tolerate it.
Raymond writes in the end,” I must insist that all that I write was either
confessed to me by Catherine herself or I found it amongst the writing of Fra
Tommaso , her first confessor, or else I was told by Friars of my own order or
reliable women whom I have already named, who were companions of Catherine.
Pious
life. Catherine lived in God. God showed in her. Her whole
appearance scintillated with purity. Her friends described that men trembled in
her presence. Her face glowed. Being with her was a spiritual experience.
Ecstasy.
Ecstasy has been experienced by all great saints, belonging to all religions. When
in ecstasy, Saint Catherine would become rigid, and unaware of time, space and
surroundings. She did not respond to sight or sound or touch. Raymond and the
other Friars watched it a thousand times. After receiving the Eucharist she
would often fall down in ecstasy, lasting for 3-4 hours. Her clenched fingers
would tightly press into the palms. Her eyes would be tightly shut. On the
feast day of the Apostle’s conversion it lasted for 3 days and nights. There
was not the slightest sign of life. People thought that either she has died or
was near death. One day a woman kicked her while she was in ecstasy. She
suddenly died the same day. Another
wretch dragged her unconscious body out of the church in the street. He was
punished so severely that Raymond chose not to describe it. Friar Pietro di
Lando pricked all over her body with a needle. Even that did not awaken her.
This Friar had a miserable end. In the court of Avignon, the women of the court
treated her ecstasies as spectacles and stuck pins in her feet to see if that
would awaken her.
What did Catherine say about the rapt state?
She gave different accounts at different times. One time she
described heaven and what was going on. Sometimes she would come back with
instruction for her companions. Sometimes she won’t say anything, because the
experience would be beyond words. Once while she was in rapt state, she started
repeating the phrase, “I have seen the secret things of God.” Once
she said that she felt as if her soul entered in God and God entered in her
soul, like the fish is in water and water is in the fish.
Holy
Anorexia. Living without food or very little food is not uncommon.
Dr Bell has collected two hundred and sixty-one possible cases of holy
anorexia. Stomach shrinks due to not eating. A stage reaches when eating causes
pain due to inability of stomach to expand. Pain may cause pleasure, because
one is suffering for God. The disease when it occurs in modern women who wants
to stay thin and attractive is called Anorexia nervosa. It has high mortality
and very difficult to treat. Catherine did not eat or drink after she drank pus
of Andrea and liquid from the wound of Jesus, as described above.
Stigmata.
The stigmata on her hand and feet were not visible. Mother Theodosia Drane wrote,
“…in the center of the palm there was an appearance as if the flesh under the
skin was missing, so that if lighted candle was placed behind it, a distinct
light would become visible on the other side.”
End of
book five with “Oh God! Oh Rabboni*”
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*In an ancient language, Rabboni
means “my beloved”