73.   The path

 

 

There is no call from the Creator

There is no reply from the Maker

Door to God is locked

Ray from Him is blocked

No guide to show the way

No place to rest and stay

Your Majesty did not appoint a mentor

Your house remained forbidden to enter

Path was as dark as it could be

Riddled with difficulties as it should be

Alas, never got lost

In Your pious thought

Never had the ‘out of body feel’

Never on You did my mind seal

In the eyes of my mind

Your vision did not shine

Emptiness lingered over the begging hand

It remained dry like desert sand

Instead of joy, progress and hope

There was despair and pain to cope

In this journey what is hard to endure

Your silence, and lack of progress, for sure

If that is Your will oh Lord

Mkadk will make it his bidding, oh God

71.  What else should I do

 

My God, please tell me

What else should I do?

I have done my best

But failed some crucial test

 

I have shed tears every day

I have begged You every day

I have prayed to You every day

I try to reach You every day

 

I collected and offered wild flowers

Covered with dew and rain

I wrote and sang songs

Of Your glory and my pain

 

 

I have repeated Your name millions of time

I have thought about You zillions of time

I loved You with an obsession

I yearned for You with burning  passion

I debased myself so low

Nothing further was left to go

 

Like Mogul king Babur I also thought

As a last resort

I should offer to God

The most valuable thing I got

 

I laid my life at Your feet

Master and mote were going to meet

Your silence was an utter defeat

Your indifference punctured my conceit

I failed to get Your attention

My sacrifice was not worth mention

 

Dear God give a clue

What else should mkadk do

 

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70.  Love for God. Part 3

Love for You is strange

Time does not diminish it

It feeds on Your thought

Your silence does not finish it

It grows with time

It has no decline

 

Human love needs sharing

We share our joys and sorrows

We share our hopes and dreams

We share our todays and tomorrows

There is no sharing with God

He does not talk back

One’s soul may be on fire

One’s body may be on rack

One may cry out! Help me

Lord, I am going to crack

Who cares if one dies?

Eternal silence is Your reply

 

Life and death are meaningless to Divinity

You are God! You live in infinity

Mind does not know of cells it consist

You probably don’t know if we exist

 

Mkadk will keep loving You oh God

My silent, invisible, untouchable, indifferent Lord

 

 

 

69.  Love for God. Part 2

 

Mkadk does  not know how it starts

Who plants it in mind’s hive?

But soon it becomes essential

Like air is to all life

 

One is caught in a tornado

Separation charges this dynamo

Joy and pain rise to a crescendo

Finally union tames this inferno

 

Union with God is the aim

Every seeker continues his endeavor

Though none falters or waver

Lucky few are granted this favor

 

 

68. Love for God . part 1

 

Love for God is very strange

I do not know how You look like

I have never seen You

I have never talked to You

I have never touched You

Yet I love You!

You have never returned my love

I do not know where You live

I do not know how to reach You

If I try to reach You

You do not encourage it

Throw hurdles in my path

Yet mkadk loves You!

Because he feels You

 

 

61. The riddle

 

Mkadk has not been able to solve this riddle

When You have so much, why You give so little

I have asked so little, for so long

Oh Lord, I don’t know what is wrong

Worldly gains are not what I want

Spiritual progress is the beggar’s cant

As a wise man from East once remarked

It is like getting from ocean dew drops

Few drops from a bountiful God

Ever generous or a miserly Lord

 

God replies

Does not matter when you want

But are you ready for the grant

Just length does not count

Only intent does not count

Everybody’s intent and effort are noted

In the end both are voted

Everybody gets his just reward

Something, if he has worked hard

This path has a guiding creed

Trained according to capacity and need

What you want, why are you doing this

Do you want fame, miracles or bliss

 

Or, on the other hand

Love of God bubbles from you, you cannot help yourself

Songs for Lord, erupt from you, you cannot help yourself

 

Mkadk again

Wise words did not soothe his rebellious heart

Years of pain and anguish had made him distraught

What he wanted was certitude

What he got were platitude

Not a word of acknowledgement during all those years

Not one spiritual occurrence to allay his fears

He said, how can I be sure

That this is God’s talk

And not my own thought

Tell me something

Show me something

Which reason cannot explain

Science cannot maintain

But others can also ascertain

Issues between mkadk and God

As of now remain unresolved

 

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60.  The Door

 

I knocked and knocked at Your door

I howled and rolled on the floor

I scratched the door, I rang the bell

Misery of my heart I wanted to tell

Mkadk stood there with bleeding hands, bleeding feet

Locked door, silent house, was there to greet

Nobody opened the door to the beggar’s cant

Nobody asked, who are you, what you want

 

If door had been opened by the mighty God

If I had only met the most noble Lord

I would have said ‘ oh Sire’

Grant me my two desire

Please talk to me once a while

Please move me forward once a while

 

God’s reply

God said, oh mortal, what you sought

Don’t you know you have already got

You want Me to speak and draw you near Me 

Be silent, be still, stop thoughts, you will hear Me 

I have guided you

I have helped you

I have talked to you

I have walked with you

 

You complain of no progress to show

You have made progress you don’t know

Don’t you think of God for a longer time

Can’t you focus on Lord for a longer time

Don’t you sometimes feel the light

Aren’t your sessions filled with delight

Progress is difficult to assess, try as one might

Ant climbing the hill does not know her height


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59. God please come close

 

Oh God

Dear God

Don’t go away, please stay

Without You, oh God

I lose my way

And go astray

 

Oh God, dear God

Have mercy on me

Don’t leave me by myself

Don’t leave me alone

Please God, please stay

 

Oh God, dear God

Please stay, please stay

Oh God for God sake please stay

Stay near, stay close

Don’t go far

Don’t go away

 

Make me Thy dwelling

Make me Thy abode

Stay in me, live in me

For an instant, or a lifetime

As you please

 

Before staying, dear God

Make me worthy of Thy stay

Change me with Thy grace

Let mkadk feel Your touch

on his unworthy face

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58. There might dawn a day

 

There might dawn a day

When my Master

My Maker

My Creator

My God

My Allah

My Khuda

MY Parmatma

My Permeshwar

My Bhagwan

My Rubb

My Yahweh

My Ahura Mazda 

Will look down from His height

And discern the mote’s plight

 

It is possible

Reflection of His light Devine

Will make the mote

Scintillate with brilliant shine

 

A thought, Just this thought

Will break the mote’s heart

 

That He is the owner of myriad worlds

You, a mere particle of dust

Who are you, what is your worth

 

Yet He listened to your contention

Thought you worthy of His attention

Is your place worth mention

 

 

There are suns as many as hundred billion

There are planets as many as several trillion

Dust particles, as many as zillions of zillion

There is one Maker

And one Creator

Imagine His height

Think of your nadir

 

is’nt it a symbol of His mercy

is’nt it a symbol of His grace

That He listened to you

Light of God touched your face

 

The thought of His mercy will shatter

The entity of mkadk wll scatter

And break into atoms his matter

 

Oh people of this world, what bliss

Is there a reward greater than this

 

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57. Touch of my Master

 

 

 

Oh my Master have mercy on me

 

Oh my God

Oh my Allah

Oh my Bhagwan

Oh my Rubb

Oh my Yahweh

oh my Ahura Mazda
 

All are but your names

However called, You are the same

My soul loves You, love it must

Have mercy on this speck of dust

 

Oh my God have mercy on me

 

When the sun will lose its light

When the stars are no longer bright

When nothing is left, everything dies

 

Your glory  will ever shine

Because You are Devine

You were there before time

You will be there after time

You have no decline

 

Oh God, please send to mkadk

A ray of Your light

A note of Thy bell

Let it dwell

In every cell

Thy music, Thy light

Will fill mkadk with delight

Not being able to contain

He will burst into flame

In the emptiness of space

His ashes will sing the rhyme

Sing, till the end of time

What words will one find

“All praises are worthy  only of Him

 He sustains the universe with His mind”

To feel Your fire

is mkadk’s ultimate desire

 

Oh my God, oh my God

Oh my Lord, oh my Lord

 

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55.  Seperation from You

 

 

 

 Separation from You

 is the cause of my pain

You are silent and hidden

and somewhere far

I have no peace, my soul is at war

 

 

Kindle the candle of Thy light

And watch the drama of sheer delight

Mad with joy, ready for death

Mkadk arrives

In the candle he dives

He dives in the flame

Your flame, Your flame

Again and again

Again and again

 

He looses his wings

And falls in the fire

As he falls in the flame

He utters Your name

 

Blazing heat burns his body

Your majesty it shows

Like embers it glows

 

Melting snow sets in motion

Journey of the drop towards ocean

As it merges with the ocean

It becomes ocean

 

Oh God, this is my great desire

To burn in Your love

And become fire

 

 

 

 

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