58. There might dawn a day

 

There might dawn a day

When my Master

My Maker

My Creator

My God

My Allah

My Khuda

MY Parmatma

My Permeshwar

My Bhagwan

My Rubb

My Yahweh

My Ahura Mazda 

Will look down from His height

And discern the mote’s plight

 

It is possible

Reflection of His light Devine

Will make the mote

Scintillate with brilliant shine

 

A thought, Just this thought

Will break the mote’s heart

 

That He is the owner of myriad worlds

You, a mere particle of dust

Who are you, what is your worth

 

Yet He listened to your contention

Thought you worthy of His attention

Is your place worth mention

 

 

There are suns as many as hundred billion

There are planets as many as several trillion

Dust particles, as many as zillions of zillion

There is one Maker

And one Creator

Imagine His height

Think of your nadir

 

is’nt it a symbol of His mercy

is’nt it a symbol of His grace

That He listened to you

Light of God touched your face

 

The thought of His mercy will shatter

The entity of mkadk wll scatter

And break into atoms his matter

 

Oh people of this world, what bliss

Is there a reward greater than this

 

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57. Touch of my Master

 

 

 

Oh my Master have mercy on me

 

Oh my God

Oh my Allah

Oh my Bhagwan

Oh my Rubb

Oh my Yahweh

oh my Ahura Mazda
 

All are but your names

However called, You are the same

My soul loves You, love it must

Have mercy on this speck of dust

 

Oh my God have mercy on me

 

When the sun will lose its light

When the stars are no longer bright

When nothing is left, everything dies

 

Your glory  will ever shine

Because You are Devine

You were there before time

You will be there after time

You have no decline

 

Oh God, please send to mkadk

A ray of Your light

A note of Thy bell

Let it dwell

In every cell

Thy music, Thy light

Will fill mkadk with delight

Not being able to contain

He will burst into flame

In the emptiness of space

His ashes will sing the rhyme

Sing, till the end of time

What words will one find

“All praises are worthy  only of Him

 He sustains the universe with His mind”

To feel Your fire

is mkadk’s ultimate desire

 

Oh my God, oh my God

Oh my Lord, oh my Lord

 

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56.  Iqbals’ praise of God

Iqbal was a great poet. He was a mystic and lover of God. Here are

 some of his verses. The originals are in Urdu.  I have attempted to

translate them, and changed them a little where I could not find a

proper word. They have lost much in my inadequate translation.

 

1.

There are no boundaries or limits to Your power

If You so desire

Desert sand will blossom in flower

2.

Who nourishes the tiny seed in the darkness of land

Oceans and rivers change into clouds by whose hand

Who brings  the wind and the rain

Who tells the seasons to change

Who fills the golden sheaths with the pearls of wheat

Who created the earth’s soil

Who ordered the sun to boil

3.

His gleam is seen in sun and lightning

In gold, mercury and showers

Wilderness belongs to Him

Tumbleweed belongs to Him

Thorns belong to him

And so do flowers

 

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55.  Seperation from You

 

 

 

 Separation from You

 is the cause of my pain

You are silent and hidden

and somewhere far

I have no peace, my soul is at war

 

 

Kindle the candle of Thy light

And watch the drama of sheer delight

Mad with joy, ready for death

Mkadk arrives

In the candle he dives

He dives in the flame

Your flame, Your flame

Again and again

Again and again

 

He looses his wings

And falls in the fire

As he falls in the flame

He utters Your name

 

Blazing heat burns his body

Your majesty it shows

Like embers it glows

 

Melting snow sets in motion

Journey of the drop towards ocean

As it merges with the ocean

It becomes ocean

 

Oh God, this is my great desire

To burn in Your love

And become fire

 

 

 

 

note. like the previous blog it will be posted on You tube

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54. One sided conversation with God

 

Oh God, dear God

Please stop, please stop

And listen to me

Please listen to me

 

 

I spent my life away from You

I spent my youth and adulthood away from You

I am ashamed, I am sorry

But what is the use

What is done cannot be undone

Time does not come back

Oh God I am ashamed, I am sorry

 

 

I was caught in the web of life

My heart was full of desires

I followed them with every breath

Like the shadow follows the body

All living things avoid pain and seek pleasure

I was no different

I followed the supreme law


 

Where was the time for You

Even if I remembered You

It was more of a ritual, a habit

Thoughts never left the world

 

 

Now that old age has come

Drama of life is going to be over

Now I think of You

 

 

I want to say something, oh God

Don’t be angry

Don’t consider me insolent

I want to tell You my side

 

 

I am a product of nature and nurture

I got my nature from my parents

Half the genes from my mother

And half from my father

I was nurtured at where I was born

And where I grew up

 

 

Neither in nature nor in nurture

I had any say

Nobody asked me my wishes

Where do you want to be born

Where do you want to be raised

Who should be your parents

 

 

Oh God whatever I am

Circumstances made me so

You made me so

Everything originates from You

 

 

 

This is not an excuse for my shortcomings

Decisions were mine, responsibility is mine

This is not a complaint

This is not an indictment of you

I know I am a tiny part

Of a huge system

Whose laws were set by You

At the beginning of time

And can never be changed



You fixed the speed of light
You made air essential to life
You made atoms small and large
You decreed the electron's charge

 

 

These are just pathos

These are just pathos

For lost time

The time I wasted

For things that could have been

I could have been closer to You

This thought is like a dagger in my heart

 

 

Oh God

Whatever life is left

Please

Draw mkadk closer to You

Please

Draw mkadk nearer to You

Oh god, dear God

Oh God, dear God

 

 

Note. I have a pathetic version of abovewitten in my voice as a song-like thing, but the blog does not have the means to put it here
I have put it on You Tube

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53.Autopublishing of all blogs



I had decided not to write any more after the  last blog posted on 5.3.2009. I have mentioned the reasons in the " introduction" of my book. The book is simply a collection of all the blog on this site.

              Here is the title page, some other entries, and the introduction of the book
            


                                

MKADK’s  Journey towards Allah

Part One

Collection of Blog at:

www.aftna-questforallah.blogspot.com

Author:  MKADK

                     Price: Free

                      

                                            Dedicated  To

                                                      MB

                                   Who Sustained Me In This Effort

                   

                                                  

                                                           INTRODUCTION

Here is a partial collection of my blog:

              The purpose of writing the blog was to express my feelings and , like St. Therese of Lisieux, tell the world about the goodness of God  (blog no. 13) , a fact not appreciated in the miseries of the world.  I have recently become personally aware of a definitive proof of God’s kindness towards humanity.

              I stopped writing my blog because I did not think that the thoughts of this mote were important enough for the world to know them.  A speck and its thoughts! Did not achieve any spiritual success.  That shows my worthiness.Furthermore, nobody was reading the blog.

              On December 13, 1999, when I took the first practical step in the search for Allah, I did not even know the direction . I did not believe in any religion. Except that unbearable, painful , love that burnt in my heart , there was no external light (similar to St. John of the Cross, although he had the beliefs and organization, while I had none ).  There was no guide.  I was shown the way by books of mystics.  I learned the direction and path through reading these books and appealing to God for help.  The books which particularly helped me have been alphabetically named in a list .

              Initially I was sure that my Master, Himself, will help me so I need not worry about anything.  My thought was that if a person tries to reach Allah and during that effort does not care for the enticements of this world, then surely, God must be appreciative of his dedication and will help him; show him the way.

              But now, after twelve and a half years, this hypothesis has seriously been damaged. Apparently God has not helped one bit (see Brother Lawrence’s experience, blog 15) If He provided help, in secret, that may be a different matter.  I am off course, unaware of it.  Maybe after a few more years, if my desires get fulfilled, this theory  may be restored. Or, it may be God’s desire, that all travelers must come, completely, of their own free will,  their own volition and not due to any compulsion or thought of reward. Just because they love Him. The searcher must face all the difficulties himself, with patience and perseverance.  If God were to keep on helping him in his trials and tribulations to reach Him, then it will be a bit like if I give money to some one to praise me – what good will be such praise? As a matter of fact, now I think  the immense impediments of this travel are one absolutely necessary component of it.  The second component is love for God.  A love, which does not demand anything in return.  Not a hint of expectation  of any reward from God (I am only talking about the ‘path of love’.  I do not profess to know of other paths).  Therefore ,  in this particular path, one should not request anything from God because it smells of compensation and wages.  It denotes lack of contentment with what God has given you and unhappiness with His decision.  As St. John of the Cross would say “This is not the way of the cross”.

              How much road has been travelled?  I do not know. Those milestones which mystics have mentioned have not yet come.

              Therefore, probably, despite daily meditation ( except a period of illness), it is still the beginning.  My brother asked a great mystic (Qalandar) about me.  He replied: “ I came in this area as a young man, fifty-fiftyfive years have passed.”.   Then the mystic was silent.  

               That ‘great adept’ lived in a cave on a hill.  This was his answer, meaning, it is a lifelong effort. 

              Then he suddenly said “He has a Hindu friend who is a good man, a pious man, a man near to Allah”.  The great mystic was 6-7 thousand miles away from my Hindu friend.  How did he know about my friend?  Only he knew this secret . Though, my friend, in my opinion,is near God.  He used to go into Smadhi, ( trance like state ) once or twice daily for 10-20 minutes, during which he would be lost in thought of God, oblivious to time and space.  During some the smadhis, his hands would start smelling of sandalwood, a scent associated with Lord Krishna. Mention of God’s name often brought tears to his eyes.  Very few people knew this aspect of his life (see blog 5).  He had never met or heard of the ‘great  Muslim adept”.

              For searchers of God, love for God is very important. Such people go to great lengths to acquire this gift . I was given this boon, free, from the very first day of the  quest.  I am utterly and completely grateful to God for giving it to me.

              I have never had a spiritual experience. But if I do not mention two blessings, it will be tantamount to ungratefulness.  First, is the bliss during a part of the meditation.  This blissfulness is due to the imagined presence of God.  One’s senses are necessary to develop and maintain this thought.  Therefore I do not want to lose my senses and become oblivious like some yogis and durveshes do.

              Secondly, after some time, thoughts start focusing on God.  They do wander but not for long.  Magnet of God pulls them towards Himself, as if, they were tied to an elastic band.

                                                          Journey continues… …........A journey without end and an unknown destination. Therefore all seekers continue to be travelers, some ahead and some behind. This road has milestones,rest areas,ups and downs (as told to Shahab by his hidden and anonymous mentor).

MKADK

November 15, 2011, Rewritten on July 19, 2012

“ Purity of love for God often requires anonymity unless there are other overriding concerns or the  person becomes mad (majzoob or Must Qalander)”